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Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Pity Party.

The month of August was an interesting month for me. I had a pity party all month long. Things were not going the way I wanted them to.  My plans were being squashed. Money was tight. Nothing seemed certain. Anyone who knows me, knows that I do not handle the unknown well. In my perfect world, everything would happen just the way I envisioned. I've learned this month that I am grateful for the unknown. I am grateful to know that I have a loving Heavenly Father who sees the bigger picture and has a better plan for me than I could ever imagine.

There were many days that I selfishly though to myself, "Why is this happening to me, when Chase and I are trying so hard to do the right things?" or "Why is this happening right now?" I had many talks with my Heavenly Father were I vented and pleaded for guidance and guess what? He listened. He comforted me. He allowed me to feel that everything would be okay. He didn't give me all the answers or tell me exactly why things were happening the way that they were, but He strengthened my faith, and that was enough.

Elder Scott said, "Just when all seems to be going right, challenges often come in multiple doses apllied simultaneously. When those trials are not consequences of your disobedience, they are evidence that the Lord feels you are prepared to grow more. He therefore gives you experiences that stimulate growth, understanding, and compassion, which polish you for your everlasting benefit. To get you from where you are to where He want you to be requires a lot of stretching, and that generally entails discomfort and pain." 


I am so grateful this month that I have been able to step back and see all of the blessings that I have received. I'm grateful for the small glimpses I've seen of the plan that Heavenly Father has layed out for me. He really is in the details of our lives. He loves us perfectly and knows exactly what is best for us. He absolutely NEVER forgets us. 

If you haven't seen this video, I highly recommend watching it. Grab a box of tissues too!