This month my thoughts have been taking me back to the precious 18 months I spent as a missionary in the California Santa Rosa Misson (CASRM). June 19th marked a year since I boarded a plane and headed back to Utah. That day I felt so many different emotions. I was SO excited to see my family and friends again. I could hardly stand it. I was nervous about what the future held for me. I was so grateful for the things that I had learned, and I was SO sad to be leaving a people and place I grew to love so much.


It's hard for me to imagine that I've been home a year already. As I've been reflecting on all that has happened to me since I've been home and all the memories I had as a missionary, my heart has once again been flooded with the love I have for the people in the CASRM. I've been reading some of my emails, and looking through my pictures and journals. I've laughed my head off and cried my eyes out. I came across the last email that I sent to my mission President, and I felt like it perfectly portrayed my love of my mission, and so I thought I would share it.
"Dear President,
This is the last letter I will be writing you as a full-time missionary. I think it's finally starting to hit me that tomorrow I will be flying home. My heart is full, and yet heavy. The last couple of days my mind has been flooded with people, places, and all of the experiences that I've had as a missionary. Let me just tell you a little bit about what I've been thinking and feeling:
I thought about when I started my mission with Hermana Martinez in Santa Rosa. Although I was only in that area for 6 weeks. I love it with everything I've got. Hermana Martinez taught me how to love the Latino people. She constantly thanked me for serving her people. I am so grateful for her patience with me at that time. I was scared out of my mind and I thought that I would never learn Spanish. She set the pace for the rest of my mission.
Then I went to Vacaville for 6 months. I can't even talk about Vacaville without just wanting to cry. That place is sacred ground to me. I learned so much there it's hard to even begin to tell you. I was with Hermana Stohel for 2 transfers. She taught me how to work HARD! We tracted all the time. It was hot, and hard, but worth every effort. Together we had my first baptism, Jaime. I felt the spirit and joy that comes from helping someone enter into the waters of baptism. It was also in Vacaville where I got assigned to train Hermana Anderson. I will always be grateful for that assignment. At the time, there was nothing I could have wanted more than to run away from that assignment. I was scared to take over the area. I couldn't speak Spanish. I felt like I had no clue what to do. My inadequecies were at their highest. Who would have known that because of that call, I made an eternal friend. We worked hard together. We made a lot of mistakes, but we just laughed it out. I think that is probably what I learned the most from Hermana Anderson, is that is was okay to be myself, and to laugh! We had some challenging experiences, and some of the most spiritual experiences of my mission together. We didn't baptize anyone, but we loved those people. We saw miracles happen every day. I've thought a lot about the Traylor family. It's been a miracle to watch them grow in the past 18 months. They have changed my life. I think about Eduardo, who I like to call my "Vacaville Miracle" He was just the person that we needed to find in Vacaville. He brought the group together. I will never forget the Sacrament meeting that he stood up and bore his testimony and said that the best thing that happened to him that summer was when we found him on the street. (We didn't find him, he found us!) Miracles still continue to happen in Vacaville. We got a phone call from the Elders there about 2 weeks ago saying that so many of the people I was working with almost a year ago are now active. I love that place.
Then I went to Rohnert Park with Hermana Osorio. Rohnert Park was like the refiner's fire for me. I felt like I was very tested there, but I learned so much. I learned that I didn't have to be a perfect missionary. I learned that just trying was enough. I felt of my Heavenly Father's love for me. Hermana Osorio taught me a lot. She truly cared about the individual. She did the small things for them. I love her.
From there I headed over to Napa with Hermana Fenn. Although we were only together for one transfer I learned a lot from her as well. It was fun to work with someone who was at about the same time out as me on the mission. We taught well together. She helped me and talked me through a lot of doubts that I had as I was hitting my one year mark. Then Hermana Ordonez came. I love that girl so much! She kept me on my toes :) She is one of the best missionaries that I know. She worked hard and she went so out of her way to love these people and do the small things for them. She was always working on some kind of project for someone. :) She always made me laugh. Together we had 2 baptisms. Eiro, and Joseph. Eiro is struggling a lot right now and it makes me so sad. But I continue to pray for him. Joseph is doing amazing last I heard. When we first met him he was a truth-seeker. He loved and accepted everything that we taught him. I love him. Last I heard he got the priesthood and has been blessing the Sacrament. He also helps teach the Gospel Principles class. That makes me so happy!
Then I headed to Fairfield with Hermana Anderson for a second round. I will never be able to thank you enough for letting me serve again with Hermana Anderson. She has made a bigger impact on my mission than I will ever be able to tell you. She has made me become the missionary I needed to be. I have come to love Fairfield so much as well. It has not been an easy area. Just like I said in my mission letter. I have really come to love and appreciate the phrase, "Come what may, and love it" here. I love the people. I love the few investigators that we have. I have come to realize here what it really means to be a disciple of Jesus Christ. I truly believe that we were sent here together to strengthen the branch. To love these people. There were so many times that we sat with members who just cried, or we helped them move, or we served them in some way. That couldn't be checked off of our key indicators, but it didn't matter to me in the least because we were doing what Jesus Christ, the Savior of the world, would be doing if He himself could be here. What better call is there than that.
I have loved every part of my mission. It has changed me. I have really come to know that I have a loving Heavenly Father. The Atonement has become more real to me than ever. The Book of Mormon is true. My testimony has grown stronger. My faith has increased. I trust more in Heavenly Father and I have the confidence to do the things that He has asked of me. I have felt what it is like to be TRULY happy. I will miss being a full-time missionary. So much. "My cup runneth over" with gratitude for the person that I have become, for the blessings that I have seen and for this opportunity that I have had to serve my Savior, Jesus Christ for the past 18 months of my life. I will never forget these experiences I have had out here. I know that they will continue to shape and mold me for the rest of my life.
Last but not least, I just want to say thank you to you President. Thank you for everything that you've taught me. Thank you for your council, advice, trust, confidence, and love for me. You have impacted my life so much. You and Sister Bunker have blessed me by your service more than I could ever tell you. Thank you for loving me as one of your daughters, and caring enough for me to help me stretch on grow out here and become the missionary that I was supposed to become. I love you.
Love,
Hermana Rupp"
Finally, here are some pictures of my companions and people that really blessed my life!
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Eloisa Martinez |
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Pamela Stohel |
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Vacaville Spanish Group |
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Jaime's Baptism. |
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Courtney Anderson |
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The Traylor Family |
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Augustin |
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Rosa and her family |
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The Monsons |
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Maricela Osorio |
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Rohnert Park Relief Society |
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Kymberlee Fenn |
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Eiro's Baptism |
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Diana Ordonez |
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Nayn, Rubi, and Jessie |
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Joseph's Baptism |
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The Adamson's |
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The Ortega's |
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President and Sister Bunker |
Okay...I went a little picture crazy! I'm so grateful that I was able to serve a mission. I'm grateful for the way it has blessed my life and continues to do so even a year later.